tt... is the hard truth of life...
juz because u done well for one CA1... does it really matter?!
cause u r so freaking gonna flunk ur nxt...
wat if u r imba in tis one subject? the onli subject tt is able to pull ur grades up...
wat if it fails u... izzit the end?
stop relying on it... cause it arent gonna work... ****
stop tt daydreaming and get back to life sia...
juz because u do well once doesnt mean u r gonna do well always...
thr might be ppl who r doing worse than me... but for myself...
tis is unacceptable...
todae... physics quiz... still ok lar... not tt bad...
in fact it was rather easy sia...
but i damn ****ing flunked my *censored* maths test...
u can say tt my maths is the only subject tt i m better in...
n now tt i did tis... in a common test... for CA2...
i m so dead lar... how m i gonna do better...
i noe one test doesnt determine everything...
but its a *censored* common test... n it takes up more of the marks...
not tt i dunno how to do... not tt i dunno how to apply the formulas...
but... fgs... i so freaking cant c any thing lar... wl eh... n i also dunno the name...
wat the **** izzit called...
qns 4... was the killer...
totally flunked at tt qns... so gg-fied...
even mr kwek came n said to me... "so slow ar?"
**** lar... i stuck cannot meh?
i m a b***dy i****... dunno dun anyhow do lar...
do for lik 15-20mins... then find out...
oh ****... do wrongly liao... then hve to re-do... whr got enough time sia...
end up... 3b (2marks) n 4b [(i)2marks (ii)2marks] nvr do...
wat u say lar... even the others also not confirm can score...
so?
can pass alrdy i happy liao... wat more can i ask for?
sometimes... i really hate being in a imba cls...
when everyone arnd u is lik doing so imba gd
n u r the onli one stuck thr unable to any of the qns...
wat is tis lar...
nvm... wats done cant be undone...
i shld be able to put it down slowly... (somehow?)
dun settle for history which we cant change...
now look forward n c the things tt we can do...
to help make it a better place... for everyone...
i m a 'strong' guy... n i SHLD be able to take it...
wats tis to me when i hve gone thru so many other things...
things which i thought i couldnt hve done... but i did...
wat a lousy way to end the term n strt my CA2...
ya went to help put up the banner...
then end up onli help the bdae ppl sing bdae song...
actually aft maths test i was so depressed i juz wanted to go straight for the interview thingy?
but then wq wasnt feeling much better than me... n she doesnt really hide her feelings well...
hers is shown on the outside... while i kept mine in my heart...
believe me i didnt felt any better than u... i bet my life on it...
then sandy keep saying wanna stay for awhile longer at the bdae celebrations...
then reuben was one of the ppl we were celebrating bdae for... hahaz...
apparently i tink we were the last cls to arrive thr?
n they were doing the banner... apparently onli the first few get to go for interview on tt day...
so the rest juz helped put up the banner lor...
did the top again... quite fun sia...
cause these crappy mistakes nvr fail to happen...
the dropping of the twin/nylon frm third storey n ppl rushing up n down to c if everything is ok... n other funny things...
mine was a bit lame...
cause i felt a tug on the nylon then got tension wat so i thought 2nd floor ppl pulling... so i let...
then let let let... but the pulling continues...
finally then i foud out the wan me to pull... not let... lololol...
aft putting up the poster... went first floor n found out how many folded (cant find another word for it...) it was
then wait for the interview ppl...
rmbred reuben challenge me to a sprint back cls to take bags...
yeah i won by a bit... he can sprint fast... but still not fast enough to beat me... hahaz...
go train n find me again in another 1/2yrs...
woots cool... i onli left by the front gate todae... n saw wat everyone was talking abt...
lol... kl in the dhs open hse banner right in front of the sch...
i didnt c in until onli todae...
i noe i lag... but then again... who cares?
ME/仲贤...
for 3 weeks continuosly i nvr went for my run...
no idea why i m looking forward to tis week's run...
because i noe i will fail?
knowing myself... i found the purpose in my run...
no doubt... it is to train myself... (3 weeks nvr run n i call tis 'training'?)
the nxt reason is to distract myself... frm the cold n harsh truth tt i m facing now...
when i run i wouldnt tink of anything but completing... i would be so tired to even tink of anything...
it is a way i m gonna vent my anger... depending on how i use it...
i can sprint until i collapse... or
i can simply jump into the reservoir n get eaten by some big fish...
other purposes... will be when i tink of...
when u r in luck... u would tink tt nth could stop u...
but when u r down on ur luck... even the slightest breeze could crumble u...
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