i m a bloody failure...

ok i failed my bedok reservoir run todae...
i stopped n i walked... how bad was it really?
i had a late breakfast n i drank alot of water be4 i ran...
i had a weird feelin in my legs when i walked to the reservoir...
i woke up looking at the half-gray sky, tinking its not a bad day to run...
but apparently i was sooooooo wrong...
as i left my hse... the sky was gray n i felt very few raindrops alrdy...
as i thought i wouldnt be so bad...
i strted off the run...

an idiot trying to challenge his limits is a really stupid person...
he ran at a even faster speed than last time, hoping it would improve his timing...
but instead it totally drained the energy out of him...
but halfway at the other end of the reservoir... he felt bad... real bad...
felt like vomiting... had stitches... smething tt he could no longer fight or take out of his mind...
he failed himself... he stopped... he sat down at the middle no nowhere tinking how useless he is...
he tried to blame the weather... it had a slight drizzle...
then he decided tt it was himself to blame... juz skip one week's of run n the standard plunged...
he decided tt the timing then wasnt gd enough for show... he decided to decieve himself...
he deleted the timing... but he wasnt done running...
he was onli halfway thru...
he picked himself to his feet n continued... less than a minute later... he stopped once more...
he felt his leg ached... he dunno why...
as he strted to run once more... he surrendered to himself once more n he stopped...
finally a decision was made to walk if not run the whole thing... at least dun stop...
thr was a drizzle, his legs ached n his lungs burned... but it was nth compared to the ache in his heart
he fulfilled tt but it was too late... it was all over...
he had failed... he took arnd 40mins for the run...
at the end of the slacking... thr was still water on his face...
as he was resting for less than a minute... he thought hard... was tt sweat, tears or simply the rain?

i m gonna cre8 another blog... sole-ly for pics... ask me for its url... its supposed to be unknown to some ppl...
i arent emo...
u might ask why i call myself "ME"?
isnt it wat everybody call themselves?
it stands for me, you, n everyone else...
me, an universal term ppl use...
but for me, me stands for wat i m, a creation of my own doings... be it gd or bad...
todae was an example of me, i couldnt control my endurance... thus causing me to fail...
it isnt the first time... n i doubt it would be the last...
to my sqdmates... sry if i couldnt endure thru the whole thing with u guys...
i arent as strong as u tink i m... i m a weakling who couldnt even run the whole bedok reservoir without stopping...
a victory is for once, a failure forever...

ME, 我, a chilling feeling in his heart