Dun read tis post... it is for my own memories...

i know tt some ppl lik u will still read tis post de...
but its valentime n friendship day... a day of happiness
n i dun wanna spoil ur gd mood...
so plz dun carry on reading...

i m not showing tis... but my heart is crying even as i m typing tis out...
i noe tis sounds emo but its true...
todae's activity... every single procedure we did had faults... n i was the cause of ALL these faults...
the poncho n my shear lashes...
u noe... i tried n changed... but t still wasnt gd enough...
i did wat i could but it still wasnt enough...
i need more... strength?speed?accuracy?agility?
dun tink so... i need to train more...
ALOT more...
the ponchos sagged n dropped the lashes slipped n fell...
wat m i doing as a cc comp guy team member? during the 3rd last training?!
i failed... i dragged the team down...
after the training... my heart n morale was down... devastating demolishing defeat...
my heart was breaking n tears were held back...
but a front was put on...
no1 really noticed tt did u?
i was at fault n tt could not be changed...
it will stay as a scar etched on my heart...

nth seems to be going well for me tis few days...
i bet it would drag for another few weeks... perhaps months... maybe even years...
my cl test was a goner... my physics test was a failure...
wat else can be done...

i ask myself...
ME