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Everything for the past month or so...

2012-01-22T23:27:00.001+08:00

wow... damn i havent posted for a long time again...
so i will try my best to rmbr the chronological order... but since i've got such a bad memory i can only try... so pardon me if thr's any mistakes arnd..

8th - 12th Jan
ok so 2 weeks ago i went to cameron highlands with keith for sort of a trekking trip..
but first n foremost... the coach is one of the best i had ever rode in... damn nice XD lols
first day we stayed at chuagin in brinchang, which was a pretty ok hotel... but wasnt as gd as the second one at tanah rata... forgot the name alrdy though i tink it was e.s.n. or something lik tt...
considering the prices RM60 for chuagin and RM50 per night for 2 nights at the other one...
well we did trekking for the first 2 days... which wasnt exactly as smooth a journey as i thought i was gonna be..
all jungle trails and the likes... well the pics and videos probably wouldnt make it seem too hard but trust me when i say this... u would be friends with pretty much everything u can see in the forest..
branches, trees, trunks, roots, mud, insects, birds and even rain.. well u would get into contact with pretty much all of them, except for birds (u can only hear them)..
then keith also somehow brought back some weird leech lik thingy back to the hotel on the 2nd day... which was damn disgusting...
i threw away my shoes by the 2nd day... its was brown with mud beyond recognition.. didnt even want to touch it alrdy...
when we woke up for the third day.. it was raining and somehow prevented us from further jungle trailling since it would probably make the route alot harder than it already was... so we ended up deciding to slack for the third day hahaz..
went on a half day sightseeing tour around cameron with some agency at RM25... which was a rather ok price...
lols the highlight of tt tour is the insect and reptile farm though we visited a bee farm (ok we were pretty hum for this as well), tea plantation and also a strawberry farm, we even shared a raw corn (which tasted not bad btw)
so the butterflies at tt farm were quite big and juz freaked the hell out of both of us..
then keith saw his childhood dream pet - the rhinoceros beetle..
and a ton of other rather scary looking insects.. (i found out tt both of us are chickens abt them LOL)
yeah so blah blah blah..
then we had steamboat dinner tt night... and yeah went back the nxt day..
n i have no idea where all the pics went... all in keith's camera since i didnt bring mine...
but wow, its an enriching trip which i had quite alot of fun..
then it would hve been more interesting if we had lik arnd 2 more ppl who could handle tt heat...
a few times we almost got lost... but with juz 2... it cant really be called an expedition.. more of an adventure trip with 2 adventurers...
would definetely try to go for another few mountains around with some friends when i can find time in the future..

ok then it was sending off szewing... i forgot the date actually and originally not intended to go
but somehow renjie managed to psycho/persuade me to go..
then again... why not? it was pretty much the last (hopefully not) time tt we r gonna be seeing her...
well.. she was a friend... classmate for 2 years and a PW mate...
so kayez... byez Szewing... will miss ya as a friend... hope tt we will meet again someday and all the best in everything u do~! :D

ok then it was sherman's chalet which i pretty much crashed uninvited >< lols
well hopefully they didnt mind much... but thr was quite an attendance... at least over 20 ppl...
shaldnt name everyone in case i miss out some ppl hahaz..
then thr was his bro, sherwin, a p6 student which was rather funny... and apparently i tink he alrdy hates some of the ppl tt were thr...
everyone were either bbq-ing, eating or singing k..
but aft tt some ppl left n the remainder were either playing ps3 or 三国杀...
then it went on for quite a while until arnd 4-5 the ps3 ppl had alrdy fell aslp and part of the card game peeps too leaving only 4, chenteck, sean, guangyi and me...
then we, couldnt slp/couldnt find place to slp, went out to the tables outside and strted playing munchkins, another card game which i learnt within tt few hours... until finally the sun came out... gy and sean left then...
we n ct ended up slping at around 9am..
then i woke up again at around 10am due to voices showing tt ppl were alrdy awake...
for breakfast, kl and paw sort of took out the leftovers from the bbq be4 and went for a second round of bbq breakfast...
then it was sort of another short round of karaoke...
aft tt they decided the plans for the rest of the day...
it was arnd 12+pm when they left for ubin and i went back since my family were going for steamboat be4 cny since my bro was flying off for australia to further his studies at some canberra military school...
waited for the freaking 29 which took more than 10mins to arrive...
stopped at some busstop to change my bus...
but realised i juz missed one of it...
so sort of sat down n waited for 17 again... but damn epicly, i fell aslp LOL
woke up to find tt i missed another 17...
so became alot more awake in order not to miss the nxt one...
finally reached home at arnd 2.30pm..

19th Jan
then it was sending my brother off...
sighs feeling damn weird really...
its lik i wouldnt be able to see him for a year at least... and its gonna be lik tt for the nxt 4 years...
i really dunno what to feel..
sad tt he's leaving or be glad tt he's gonna be back before long?
but anws... haizzz..
i guess u can say im feeling sad tt he left...
but now i can only wish him all the best in his studies >< and tt he will do well... he must! ^^

so aft tt sending off it was to ct's hse at siglap...
the journey thr was damn crap...
sms-ed him but he didnt reply...
then i took a stop too much and strted walking around since i have completely no idea whr izzit...
walked around for at least 50mins around tt area back and forth...
calling him halfway, my batt died (and i thought tt only happened on tv and movies!)
so i was pretty lost thr... until somehow my phone didnt really die and managed to on again... but decided not to risk it by calling again but thru sms-es..
so he finally managed to pick me up with ck and jf...
but i juz realised how rich he actually was... there's a freaking elevator in the hse?!
so then we ended up mahjong-ing...
ct's bro and sis came back... and his bro was talking about how he got the cert for ORD alrdy lols...
ok then jk and sherwin came later...
so we played 3 rounds and end up ck 一家赢三家... the losses doubled when we intially decided on 20/40..
so it was around 4+am tt we went down to sing k in their movie room...
sherwin had to work so he fell aslp in ct's bed...
somehow i had no idea how.. but sang sang sang... i feel aslp be4 i knew it at arnd 6+am? i guess...
then when i awoke again, it was 12pm alrdy... jk n ck were gone n jf and ct were both still slping to the left of me...
ct woke up soon aft and we woke jf which then went up to find sherwin gone too.. packed up the mahjong n left...

20th Jan
sqd dinner at vivo was quite the success with 18 ppl turning up... the highest turn up rate for any recent sqd events tt had been organised...
everyone seem to have jobs or something and doing well... well i guess only me n keith r the slackest not finding job or stuff...
it really ended up as subway on the roof of vivo... well at least we can say we r lucky tt it didnt rain or anything...
then there was also the fireworks at uss which can be seen rather clearly...
speaking of clear... the sky too was clear enuf for us to see the belt and the entire body of Orion... but couldnt really tell any other constellations...
then thr was jr n his sweets... arnd 3kg for $25 at chinatown which was a steal and a pretty funny story behind it...
but aft eating the chatting and hanging out session didnt exactly go tt well... the entire grp cant seem to do a thing tgt... so we ended up listening to each other's gossips and stuff...
then the guys left first leaving the girls + winston...
apparently he didnt want to get home so early... so we juz left him thr... while the rest of the guys left...
a rare meeting chance but ended up exactly as it was... meeting only... no long time ago chats tt exactly happened.. so it was quite saddening and boring in a sense...
but at least i got to know how some others are doing...
hahaz guess the sqd had changed quite abit and some no longer lik to juz hang out n chill...
was tempted to stay but seemed weird...
this would be rather good once in awhile... but i wonder what the future turn up rates would be lik...
will we still stay lik this? i sure hope so...

CX 11:27PM
Happy CNY eve and CNY to all~!! :D

Blog Makeover

2012-01-06T01:43:00.001+08:00

wow hadnt visited my own blog for quite some time...
didnt realise that some things werent working...
so i sort of changed to another template blogskin... which is still btw blogskinless...
n edited the links part LOL..
k tts all :D gd nitez

2012-01-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

went to run again today...

lols k map of bedok reservoir (with my markings ><)
The checkpoints i do mentally needed to break 20mins
the start - well its obvious, where i normally start...
then going anticlockwise with X - the 0.0km/4.3km mark which i dun really use...
1, outside the kayak shed - shld be arnd 1min 45secs here
2, 0.5km mark - around 3mins 30secs
3, 1km mark - around 5mins 30secs
4, right after a curve - around 6mins+
5, 1.5km mark - around 7mins 30secs
6, 2km mark - around10mins plus minus
7, 2.5km marking - around 12mins 30secs
8, start of damai sch gate - around 16min 30secs
9, 3.5km mark
mad dash for the start/end LOL
from 8 - end shld take roughly abt 3mins if chiong... more if nvr chiong...
so well... tts how it shld be when i wanna get under 20mins
but then this time round i took 21mins >< sighs
but i guess it works better if u hve someone to chase aft... juz a suggestion though
how long izzit gonna take me to reach back to my former glory? XD
well i can pretty much say tt the 23mins 40secs 2 days ago was a complete fluke...
well for this run, the first 2km or so was ok... hitting all the timings except for the first one...
compared to the run 2 days ago which went well for the first 1.5km before everything started slowing down hahaz...
so this, is approx my running checkpoints ><
sorry if i bored ya too much... i was pretty bored myself LOL
kk ending here :D

CX
1:23AM (lols sry i was dota-ing and only typing this between games XD)

It had been a long long time...

2012-01-04T21:43:00.001+08:00

since i last posted...
lets see what shall i start with...
ok i got my new specs 2 days ago... u know the one specially made juz for army?
and wow its so damn clear tt im actually scared... scared tt my eyes would tire easily...
so for the moment, its gonna juz stay in my drawer until i decide to break into it...
this old specs shall now tank all the shit tt im gonna be stupidly doing hahaz XD
oh n did i mention tt i actually managed to run yesterday?
err... the timing is no glory... 23mins 40secs... approx 5 mins longer than my fastest timing...
but then, my fastest timing was a thing of the past after all... how long m i gonna take be4 i manage to return to my former glory... sighs ><
needa go run more often in order to keep up the steam...
but strength-wise... guess i needa find time to go do tt trng...
but sianz.. tt timing is slow crap...
lets end this short post... since i did no crap today ><

2011-12-16T01:49:00.001+08:00

well it has really been quite some time again since i last posted...
i juz came back from taiwan abt 2-3 days ago...
which was in fact a pretty gd trip and was quite fun...
but then again... i didnt manage to keep up with my schedule to start trng ><
lets juz say... i was simply slacking too much lols
this is actually more of a diary to keep myself in check...
ok the taiwan trip with visiting all the 夜市and 老街s was pretty new considering its my first time...
but on the other hand, it was actually rather boring in a sense tt it was rather fixed...
nth extremely interesting or whatnot happened..
everything abt taiwan is gd except for the fact tt there is simply too many 小绵羊s running around the streets... needa be xtra careful (if u know what i mean)
so long since i last posted and im at a loss of what to type... this blog is pretty much gonna stay the way it is until i guess... forever?
n im still owing the yep napahai trip which i hve been stuck on the first day ever since and didnt cont...
hahaz what a slacker im...
zzz this post damn random im simply typing whatever i can tink of rite now hahaz
prom was actually pretty interesting though some ppl r slightly harder to recognise... sry tt i hadta leave slightly earlier due to my flight... but it sure looks lik they all still had their fun without me... so im guessing its gd...
k ending here byez :D
cya guys soon

The End

2011-11-30T23:06:00.001+08:00

well.. the end of A-levels at least...
i dun really know what to feel... since i didnt really feel that i did exactly well for it...
for the sake of it... alot of careless stupid mistakes that could have been avoided if i had been more careful when reading the questions...
sigh but i guess its all over now and all that is left is to look forward to the things that im gonna be doing, which isnt really alot LOL
lets see... tmr is gonna be badminton with ODAC peeps in the morning then aft would be going for a BBQ at Aloha Loyang chalet, tt will probably decide part of my future (WOW sounds so impt! XD)
then prom on the 5th, in which the very same night would be flying off to taiwan for a week (guys dun contact me during this period of time, Thanks!)
probably be back on 12th midnight, so i will be free from 13th onwards...
then there is still the need to clear all my notes and shelf aft the As...
speaking of which... i havent gotten my shoes for prom night yet... heard nicholas spent over $300 for his attire... sighs im not tt rich to spend tt much ><
so my plan is to start training aft i come back from taiwan and start preparing for NS... sighs pretty close life... everything congested within these 2-3 months
all i get to enjoy life hahaz not exactly alot of time... and yet again im still owing my YEP report which is STILL on its first page... sadly :(
it had already been a year since then... really needa depend on my journal if im gonna churn out the full report for 12 days...
i miss my sqdmates, my sqd... though i still see them occasionally, the feeling is no longer the same hahaz
kk shall end for now alrdy
-CX

2011-11-08T09:03:00.002+08:00

well.. juz be4 it actually starts..
i would juz lik to wish everyone all the best for ur As :D
we will be free in 21 days time... cya then ^^

Y6 Graduation Day 14/10/11

2011-10-15T00:56:00.001+08:00

well... cant really believe it... 6 years of life in Dunman High has officially came to an end today...
actually i really dunno what to feel...
sad that its over? or happy that its a whole new beginning?
however, then again, its not like we wouldnt meet each other again...
the last n final farewell well definetely be at prom where i tink then i would be really sad..
so for now... imma more caught up with the tension of A-levels coming up instead of pretty much anything else...
witth my current sucky score, i most probably wouldnt even get into any uni, much less try to get a scholarship to reduce my parent's burden...
tts why i really wanna do well for the A-levels...
i might not be able to get the full 90 ranking points, but if i don't try hard enough now, i know i will definetely live to regret this...
im just going to go for it... if not sleeping for a few days or not eating a few meals is gonna get me an improved score, im juz going to do it for this last one or two months and heck my health for the time being...
might not be healthy i know... but i will juz try to make up for it aft this whole thing...
this is something tt i really dun wanna regret...
so hopefully gd luck to me...
and all the best to everyone else as well...

if dr foo had given me any encouragement at all, it would be 'when u came here, u were the top 10% of your cohort'...
and to stay in tt i would have to do alot better than now...
samuel said today tt he had a motivating video tt whenever he watches, gives him the encouragement to go on...
actually, so do i... mine is juz slightly more funny... done by a bunch of ppl who had been an important part of my life in DHS... yeah... aft so long, its still tt very same teacher's day video tt really inspires me the most...

be4 i end this post today, well its still grad day for me anws, so lets juz talk something around tt point...
This is... for everyone:
My 6 years in Dunman High would not have been so meaningful and memorable without all of you guys on the way. I mean, EVERY single one of you, are friends that had shaped my life here in DHS. For that, I would really like to thank all of you for making it such an unforgettable experience for me. You all had made an impact on my life, and hopefully I too have had some kind of positive impact on yours somehow or another within these years. And with that, I wish all of you the best in your future endeavors and hope that we can meet again someday. :D
-Chong Xian to everyone who at least knows my name and face (LOL)

oh n i forgot to thank mr pang for treating the class to new york new york today at PP...
muz have costed quite a boom >< n also for sending me back aft tt XD
+ sry keith, didnt see your sms last last night to play ball aft grad day... anws couldnt make it since tt lunch was set quite some time back... so did you play? hahaz...i would have also wanted to play if possible... so long nvr play le, was quite tempted lol

guess today is not the day i would say goodbye... everything would be done at prom, i think...
but for now... i guess this blog will once again stay dead for this period of time until aft As...
so cya then...

2011-10-08T01:57:00.002+08:00

phew juz a random post..
yesterday i was studying in school as usual...
but then it started raining... heavily...
was lik damn sianzzz... then it was lik time for me to go and the rain didnt seem lik it was going to stop..
so i decided to go anws...
and knowing me... i didnt hve an umbrella... so i was walking to the backgate... thinking of what i could do...
when i saw this piece of cardboard lying at the backdoor of the library...
so lucky me... at least i had something to cover my head with while i walked to the nearest shelter, ie the void deck...
but was still rather bad... seeing how heavily it was raining... got pretty drenched on my right hand which was holding the board as well as from knees down...
other than tt it was relatively ok...
hahaz it had been so long since i last walked in such a heavy rain lik tt without an umbrella...
the last time i m pretty sure it was with some other kias who had umbrellas...
but well when i m alone... its a totally different feeling... i always seem to have lots of time to think about stuff when im walking alone...
n somehow, one way or another... it always lead me to thinking about sqdmates... sighs...
cant believe tt aft so long... i still deeply miss those days...
hahaz...

but well... now... needa concentrate on my studies... my prelims wasnt exactly well done...
so needa go for it for As...
the one big problem now then i couldnt solve is juz econs... will i ever do well enough for A-levels?
guess there's only one way to find out...
k nitez... first time im sleeping so late for weeks... hahaz

2011-09-18T00:44:00.001+08:00

hmm... lets see...
ok last wed's physics P2 didnt really go as planned...
wth... it was alot harder than i had expected...
and guess thr goes my hopeful a/b for it...
n maths was rather a challenge as well sighs...
but still im having high hopes for this prelims...
tt is if i hope to apply for any scholarships... ><
jys to all for the remaining papers~!! :D

Yr6 Prelims

2011-09-12T23:12:00.002+08:00

wow had been quite some time since i last posted again...
well what can i say... its the same old nothing much interesting for me to post about...

it all came down to this...
one of the more important exams tt im gonna take in my life..
for now... its a secondary priority aft a-lvls..
so hopefully im able to do relatively ok... sighs...
alrdy know of a few careless mistakes i made during chem p3...
and also for my econs p2... which is probably one of my worst subjects ever...
trying my best to salvage tt be4 the actual As..
now im here ranting off when im supposed to be studying for my maths tmr...
u might say its more of doing and applying...
but even tts a freaking problem when u have forgotten close to half of ur pure maths...
having not done it for so bloody long...
kk shall not waste tt much time here n go back to actual mugging...

oh n i hvent logged in for such a long time tt there's actually a new blogging interface...
which i tink actually looks not bad hahaz...
shall try it out for some... kk bb
ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE~!! :D

2011-08-26T22:05:00.001+08:00

damn funny hahaz

2011-08-25T23:16:00.001+08:00

well quite some time since i last posted again... n im pretty bored... so i shall juz copy n paste what i wrote in a note on face book here...

"As the final minutes of the day I turn 18 tick away, I am now 'officially' a young adult recognized by the law, capable of making rational decisions and taking responsibilities for my actions. Well, u can say I was lazy as i didnt want to reply to everyone who's gonna post on the wall, so i juz conveniently hid my birthday... Thanks to those who still remembered though, and those who wished me :D For those who didnt, dun really mind it too much, seeing someone's birthday on facebook n wishing them is more of a formality, and i dun blame anyone for not remembering, since there are like so many birthdays every other day... hahaz *The start of 18 years and 1 day*"

it was supposed to be written yesterday... so ya... hahaz
something else to add...
4yrs ago a special group of ppl gave me something on tt very day...
n im still using it even now :D

2011-08-05T23:09:00.001+08:00

wow really stm man... i wanted to post extra stuff here de... but realised its actually better to juz add on to yesterday's since what i wanted to post is actually on yesterday's post -.-"
sighs cant even rmbr what i wanna post... my memories these days... tsktsk... failing me lik crap...
gg sia if this is gonna cont all the way to As... imma gonna be screwed ><

2011-08-04T22:29:00.003+08:00

sigh how cui is cui exactly??
woke up with a bloody cramp in my calf..
then was lying thr feeling rather pain -.-" cui enuf yet?
both thighs were hurting throughout the day... zzz
was a rather boring day whole day damn dark n raining.. emotions were also rather dull... well for mine at least... weather affects me ><
pe did captain's ball in the hall since it was raining...
actually it was pretty fun :D
at first we played with a rule tt can only catch with one hand n guys muz bounce pass..
tts why it was rather hard...
but aft tt we played normal n tt was more fun heh XD
hvent sweated lik tt for quite awhile liaoz... so it was a pretty good feeling :D
*edit*
it reminded me of the napahai days where we worked pretty hard n became rather tired...
but wow... no sweat at all even under the hot sun XD
i want my natural aircon~ ><
*end of edit*
studied till 730 today be4 i left sch...
tmr's gonna be another 9pm day... sorta needa plan my days ahead now... hahaz

oh n i wanted to post this yesterday...
i was taking the bus home yesterday and this girl sitting beside me was using her phone(s)
nt too surprsing? one blackberry in each hand... saw her typing with her right hand and scrolling thru her left... n i was lik wow!
hahaz its a world of smartphones now... androids, blackberries and iphones...
apparently i bought my phone a tad too early... symbian isnt really worth shit now >< lols
kk end of ranting~

2011-08-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

sighs really too damn long nvr run le ><
juz now went to run abit with keith n ended up relatively tired...
my condition now is lik freaking negative -.-"
zzz really shldnt let myself go on like this... shld go train sometime...
esp with nxt mon's running thingy...
my body now is in a pretty crap mode...

then nth much really studied in the sch until 9pm today for the first time coz of the strt of the slc opening frm 6-9pm daily...
well pretty surprised at the number of ppl thr >< pretty alot actually if u asked me...
well yr6s understandably mugging... what the heck were the yr5s doing thr? lol

kk nth much really today byez

2011-07-29T23:37:00.002+08:00

nth much i wanna talk abt...
a completely random short post though...
got some aching shoulders since dunno when -.-"
quite pain though... when i move them tt is...

oh n i wanted to post this quite some time ago...
tt is... thr is no shame in mistakes... n neither m i blaming any1...
it was nth much more than my personal thoughts... what i feel...
thrs no need to apologise... for thr were no mistakes...
looking at them in full u at their strt of activity...
the first activity they r having as official NCOs...
pretty much reminds me of when we first took them...
we were also pretty confused as to what to do...
we r almost lik them... juz with all the knowledge n skills...
but NCOs... juz the name itself bears a different tone... a different significance...
esp if u r a sqd N...
jy to the yr1s tt i thought we once knew...
to the current NCOs of DHSNPCC

2011-07-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

damn... was studying in sch juz now until i suddenly got a headache...
left sch arnd 7.30pm with sherman still thr sighs... he damn tank sia...
reached home nt feeling so gd... didnt even felt lik eating the dinner i bought home -.-"
ate 2 panadols aft a while feeling better le then started doing work...
sighs... my job is nvr done eh?
kk time to cont n jyjy

POP 2011

2011-07-23T00:58:00.002+08:00

Disclaimer: This is gonna be a rather emo post...
so take ur own discretion and do not continue if u hve no wish to read my gl emotions ><
wow n im listening to qing ge wang while typing this... LOL

well whr to start... lets juz start from while i was walking pass the audi...
watching them tie the tripods' reinforcements...
it made me recall of the time when we were first starting to teach them the knots and lashes...
all the basic knots... square lashes... demo-ing for them to see... hahaz
well tt was what i was thinking when i was walking pass and looking on...
how long had it been eh? since we were last teaching them... to now they can juz do it themselves... at least a proper one?
emotions running amok... sighs... how much had they grown...
the time when we were still taking them... young and innocent... new to all these... to current full-fledged NCOs... taking over the unit... everything is upto them now...
ok well skip all the part whr we were making jr n jc's presents... and all the waiting...
the parade itself... drill competition itself...
i saw the drill comp they did in hta...
and plus this performance this time around...
what can i say... they have definitely improved from tt time when we took them...
and they have probably heard this alot of time by now... throughout the course of tc and stuff... but still im gonna say it again... "Is this the standard of a NCO squad?"
i know i had said this once be4 but still... a sqd is made up of a grp of ppl collectively and nt juz how a few individuals shine and the rest juz slack off... but i had definitely seen improvement frm back then in everyone... keep it up and keep improving...
during the drill comp, while my sqdmates were commenting on the drills... though i couldnt help but to agree with them... my heart was practically hoping with all its might tt u all could hve done better...
well its the first time they r planning such a big scale event for the entire unit... i cant help but compliment them on their efforts despite nt exactly everything went smoothly with their plans...
eh call me biased or whatever... they were once my sqd, under me >< so i got the right to be at least slightly biased towards them rite? LOL
ok other than the fact tt there wasnt much left for us other than the beehoon n rice... the dinner was pretty ok... except for the transition period was too long as they chiong-ed to finish the platform...
eventually it was juz left thr while the concert started...
throughout the concert... thr was pretty much nth else on my mind except for the speeches...
how it kept reminding me of how their speech on me went...
yeah u can call it ego or anything but.. the year1s tt we had used to lead is now the leaders of the unit...
some things... its juz cant be explained in mere words... seeing how the sqd u had once taken slowly growing from unknowing to allknowing... its a pretty weird feeling...
the entire concert i was comparing between us n our yr1 sqd Ns and our year 1 squad turned NCO sqd and us...
whats the relationship? were we able to maintain it?
i had chosen the path of the devil to keep my distance and be the fiercest when necessary... but deep down i care for them comparably with any other of my fellow sqd Ns... wishing for them to grow and mature... trying to be firm yet softer when out of activities and trainings...
was it enough? should i have been a full devil lik junchong?
watching the concert, mind racing... my heart was tearing (as in not the breaking tearing, but the crying tearing)
its pretty much a very sour feeling in my heart... there were no tears to cry... juz emotions...
actually i had hoped to hear their sqd song at least once... but never really did got the chance... hahaz
but i strongly believe in what junchong and junrong said... abt the bonds tt will hold...
i have totally no idea how long it will last... but i sure hope a long long time...
despite having my sqdmates around me... they were a pretty noisy bunch throughout the concert... yeah i know though it doesnt really concern them... but they r disrupting it.. badly..
at least tts what i thought of the myt bunch + sandy = disastrous lol...
though i also dun really understand why i mind it so much back then ><
winston doesnt really show it... but i can tell tt he shares pretty much the same sentiments as me... he kept not 1 but 5 of the souvenirs given out...
i took one and tried to pass on the rest but as no one took...
i juz simply couldnt bear to throw away their efforts... the efforts of what my sqd put in to make each and everyone of tt small token... i took back all 7...
the concert ended with my heart still tearing... with tears of joy or because im touched tt they have grown so much i dun really know...
it ended on a pretty low note... i can say... jr n jc ended up singing our sqd song -.-" so thr wasnt much of a show lik we expected hahaz
then when we exited the audi... surprisingly the gateway was alrdy gone... high possibility it was taken down n removed alrdy...
but apparently thr was something else thr not taken...
the npcc crest signboards and also a proposal were left behind the boards in front of the audi...
not wanting the CIs to find out, i decided to call junjie to settle them... but aft waiting several mins w/o any movement and since we were leaving...
i sent a msg over to someone in the new NCO sqd...
the reply wasnt exactly what i had expected and i wasnt trying to act anonymous...
even though the first qns i wanted to ask was really whether they managed to settle the boards be4 they got found out... i stopped myself... they r NCOs now... they shld be able to settle their own problems, learning on past mistakes...
i have really nth much more tt i can giv to them... except for my help n comfort shld they ever need them... aft all no matter what... i will still keep a look out for them ><
i dun even know if any1 would even be able to read this and understand me... but tt sqd was once an essential part of me... and would always be... now and forever :D

so sry tt im juz a selfish bastard... but well tts life...
but even among my sqdmates i can feel the bond tt we had once held had already weakened considerably...
well aft nt meeting each other for so damn long...
if u r nt in bio / guitar... u r juz simply 'one of the rest' who dun exactly connect much with the others...
juz exactly how long can the bond last?
its up to the sands of time to tell...

1:59AM
its juz still ME
maybe im the only one thinking tt the bond has weaken... but is it not entirely true?

2011-07-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

ok everything was over...
it all came back... n i realised i got a pretty low sucky score...
this common test.. was a complete flop...
oh for u guys then dun actually know...
i can tell u straight in the face... C E S W
get it?
too bad no elaborations...
but fyi... this is gonna be the greatest improvement yet...
just u wait for it...
i guarantee u tt with everything i've got...
if not... im pretty much screwed and u can pretend u nvr knew a failure lik me :X
i hope this is confidence though hahaz...
jy to everyone... for this is where i start my change, if nt... its all gonna be too late...

Sports Carn 2011 8/7/11

2011-07-09T22:16:00.001+08:00

well 600th post... and it was pretty late ><
but well anws, im gonna change the date to make this seem slightly more relevant.. lol
hmm... ok lets see... my dad drove me to seah im bus terminal tt day...
n was pretty bored waiting around for people i know... sort of then got onto the 2nd bus since the first bus was pretty full...
then reached there pretty early and was simply stoning around... dunno whr all the others walked to lol hahaz...
lets skip all the boring waiting stuff n go straight into something interesting..
other than the fact tt zhengfeng n iris came together... which wasnt a surprise at all...
darick came thinking that mr ong was just another student in his kirin tee...
so he walked between mr ong n hanping n told hanping: 'eh how ar, i forgot to bring my panties'
we were like... LOLOLOL... mr ong who was just beside...
lets just hope that he didnt hear anything... much... lol
then k slowly more n more ppl came...
the starting ceremony of sports carn was pretty much an introduction and something lik supposed to save 'gordon' who was supposingly 'trapped' on the small island...
when in fact, he was just hiding behind the guard tower thingy...
then i tink we r supposed to go chase some guys running around with pieces of a totem thingy..
n i was simply stoning thr waiting for something to happen hahaz...

ok skip that part.. then it was the teachers vs student games...
which i juz walked around n eventually ended up at the soccer pitch watching the match...
which was surprisingly interesting hahaz...
then aft tt... i was juz simply either walking arnd / watching the matches..
damn boring actually... then ppl all arnd was playing... joined some for awhile be4 walking arnd again...
seriously was out of options... then nicholas (fan) suddenly got injured while playing one of the fringe games - limbo rock...
wth... wth... wth...
one of our better players down sighs...
but eventually he still played lol but renjie took over for the 2nd half...
nt bad... the first games against homa went pretty well, winning 8-1? or something lik tt...
hahaz then it was back to the drawing block n waiting... lols... wait all the way until lunch... where i dun exactly hve much appetite left...
well, u know me.. aft exercise i dun really hve the stomach for anything else... maybe also because of the fact tt i had down at least 3-4 bottles of water alrdy...
but still thr was no urgent need for the toilet... perhaps i really sweated alot lol..
the lunch i must say... was pretty good compared to what we normally would hve in these kind of mass events... lol... though i felt quite wasteful ><
aft tt i sort of slacked throughout in the tentage...
the afternoon sun was relentless... as it scorched the entire beach... making it hard to even walk on the sand for long...
before long, all the games were between competitors with socks hahaz...
nevertheless it was still quite fun... except for the fact tt socks could only keep out the heat for so long... aft tt it was still burning though...
against bennu, a win though it was slightly harder than against homa...
then when the final match against drakon drew nearer...
we were hoping for a walkover as they were called over the speaker over n over again but no one appeared...
hahaz though its through inescapable fate tt we face the opponent and managed yet another win, albeit harder n harder as we grew more and more weary..
i must say its really a good team effort :D
its nt because we r stronger, though some of my teammates are indeed better >< oops hahaz
its juz tt we made less mistakes tt we r able to achieve victory...
working on the opponents' mistakes we r able to emerge victorious...
quite nice though, esp my team... they all did damn great... to make it a team win ^^
then since ours was the very last match of the sports carnival...
we didnt have to wait long be4 they proceeded to the mass games, closing ceremony n the giving out of prizes...
to think that initially we had so much ppl tt we transferred ppl to other sports...
luckily it turned out ok as it became a 7 on 7 game... which renjie simply sat out aft his debut... lol
so the 7 of us tanked through and well i guess u can say we deserved it :D
but then, we received 10 medals for our 8 members... so the excess went over to zhengfeng and kianming... who in turn gave me, hanping and darick the excess touch rug medals as well... n ended up with the below:

XD

:D:D
ok it was pretty chaotic when we were finally dismissed...
wow i realised i drank freaking lots of water... at least 7 bottles by the end of the day hahaz...
so i made my way to the toilet to sort of clear out the sand frm my shirt n pants...
didnt bathe actually... but washed off all the visible sand and stuff...
aft tt sort of waited for jinkai since i promised to leave with him ><
ended up waiting for him for pretty long as he was at the other side of the beach, n had to walk back to get his bag be4 cleaning up... so we tried the bus which supposingly had to wait for pretty long... so we went for the tram but missed one and the next as well since it was full...
so we started walking towards the station instd -.-"
poor us wasted damn alot of time waiting... LOL

so was mixed with a random bunch of 6c24 + the F class gang + zf n iris...
ya so eventually left jinkai with them since i was going for class dinner while zf n iris were going for a separate thing altogether...
met the others at vivo... and a mini-class dinner with the 8 of us? szewing, jiaying, sam lauw, deborah, mengran, kianming, tianming and me...
ate at superdog... maybe juz my 2nd time thr...
n aft tt we were juz simply thr talking abt lots of totally random stuff hahaz...
kinda reminded me of the days with the sqd... where we would juz have dinner tgt and aft tt start talking lots of crap stuff... sighs... i really miss those days... ><
left thr at arnd 9... reached home around 10... bathe and aft tt immediately KO-ed on the sofa...
but somehow still managed to pull myself off the sofa and onto the bed and slept.. almost immediately hahaz...
kk guess tt marks the end of sports carn :D
n one of the few posts with photos LOL... havent done tt for a long long time...
sry to all guys out thr still keeping a note on this blog... and thanks :D

2011-06-30T23:36:00.002+08:00

well recently hadnt had much going on except for common tests n more common tests...
which im sad to say... didnt really go tt well...
but then again... when did my tests ever went well... sigh...
think i screwed up quite abit...
ok i admit tt i slacked thru my holis but well... don't tink i would do THAT badly >< (hopefully)

ok the worst is over for now...
physics paper tmr n econs paper nxt tues...
phew... would hve a short study break be4 econs hahaz...
but then physics tmr... frm what mr pang said... is gonna be quite a killer...
zzz... juz let me die alrdy...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
looks lik it wouldnt be gd for tmr either...
well... at least i get to slp later n wake up later for tmr LOL XD
kk jy guys all the best...

btw... my nxt post is no 600th... so i guess it shld be on sports carn rite? (or rather if u all wan my 600th post to be on some stupid test lol hahaz)
hahaz hadnt been really keeping track of everything... but well thrs a few drafts here n thr which ppl arent supposed to see n im still owing a pretty long summary of my napahai trip which is still...
unfortunately at its first day whoops >< (so sryzzzzzzzzzzzzz slacked too much -.-" psps)

2011-06-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

well... so fast... its been one month since i last posted...
it was a surprisingly counter productive holidays for me...
it just so happened tt i didnt manage to do as much as i wanted to do...
but then again... dun tt always happen? -.-"

sighs...
but well... now its 2 papers down, 4 more subjects to go...
jy guys... its common test.. 2 more major exams to go n i believe we can do it :D:D
GOGOGO~!!

2011-05-26T00:32:00.002+08:00

wow i think i hurt my pointer toe -.-"
damn imba... i tink the first wave of injury came from the impact of my run...
aft my run it became rather pain ><
aft tt the stupid me stepped on it myself... wow... so clever... now cfm injured liaoz...

interhse today...
sigh i tink i did damn badly myself...
kirin vball boys 4th... vball girls 3rd
soccer boys 3rd... soccer girls 1st
bball boys 1st... bball girls 1st...
-end of scores-
sigh if we had managed to win against homa in our match...
we would be in line for the winning of the housecup with homa ><
but sigh too bad we lost...
mistakes mistakes and even more mistakes...
sigh k end of interhse...

25km - COMPLETE

2011-05-22T23:35:00.003+08:00

wow my last post way 8 may... a long long time ago... hahaz
ok 100plus passionrun singapore 2011..
to tell the truth i hadnt really been trng for this run...
i had at least not ran for 1 month be4 i went for this actual run itself...
what more is... its the first run which i joined myself, as in w/o my bro...
but... it was definitely a gd experience... this dist... wasnt exactly tt easy for me...

so it started in the morn when i ate my breakfast at arnd 10am...
then i sort of didnt eat anything much aft tt except for a banana at 1+pm, worrying tt i might vomit halfway during the run...
so i left hse at arnd 3pm n walked to the interchange and seems lik thr was quite a bit of ppl with the same goal as me... hahaz
so lets skip the boring details of me taking the bus n walking to the place which was beside the ecp lagoon...
so i sort of walked arnd the place trying to know whr m i...
then got rdy for my run n deposited my bag at the baggage counter...
phew... i was actually pretty nervous ><
duh! the longest i had ever ran was lik 16km... n it took me 1hr 19mins 47secs?
this dist is lik 9km more than the longest run i had ever ran... n i didnt even train much for it...
k then went onto basic stretching n warming up for the run...
you see the run was split into 3 different waves.. which is practically the same except for the flag off timings... n those tt want to win have to be in the first wave...
for me, since i juz wanna end it as early as possible... i went for the first wave :D
oh, n did i forget to mention tt one of the ppl thr flagging off our run was mr yam ah mee?
everyone's fav returning officer... in person... i thought he looked shorter than i expected XD lol
ok so it was an anxious wait for the run to start... n with all the ppl arnd me in wave 1... i thought i looked rather noob... everyone had lik full gear n equipment n thr i was in their singlet n sch pants... wow -.-"
the route... lets juz say tt im rather familiar with it alrdy since i hve cycled on it for at least twice during the trngs for cycling expedition... which sadly didnt manage to work out... sigh...
but i muz say... the cycling dist seems soooooooooooooooooooo much longer when u r running it.. haz
so it was to macdonalds n to changi coast rd and back to lagoon...
well im embarrassed to say how fast it took me to puncture...
lets see...
for the first 5km i was still going pretty strong and ok...
4 more times of this n im done ^^
for the next 5km i alrdy dropped to half speed...
juz 1 and a half more of this... gogogo... x.x
n yeah roughly arnd 10km i was practically dying alrdy... lol
saw jiawei, a friend which i met as a chingay volunteer, at arnd the 8km mark... (she was volunteer for the event as well)
well didnt really expect to meet her there despite her telling me tt she is going as a volunteer... since thr was gonna be so many ppl... but haha small world eh... still saw her...
well as expected, the changi coast road was the most treacherous stretch ever...
as if puncturing is not enuf alrdy... they giv us a seemingly endless stretch of road which seems lik the end of everything -.-"
so little by little... with small accelerations here n there which couldnt even mount up to much...
i slowly jogged thru 11km... 12km... 13km...
yeah more than half way thru... n the road still goes on?? o.O
14km.... 11 more signs to reach = 11 more km ><
15km... wow the turn is further front -.-" sighzzz (1hr 19mins here alrdy)
16km... 9 more signs zzz... the longest dist i had ran alrdy.. n im still going? im insane man...
17km... phew finally made the turn... im on my way back :D
18km... met mr lim cj somewhr thr... i muz go on strong... dying zzz
19km... 20km... met rachel somwhr thr... arnd 1 more bedok reservoir + abit more
21km... 22km... 3 more signs, it had passed the 2hrs mark alrdy.. slightly arnd 2hrs 2-5mins?
20+ mins to complete 3km? i muz do it >< meet my goal under 2hr 30mins
wow the last 3km was really the hardest... wanting to chiong but somehow the strength always doesnt seem to appear...
but in the end.. i still managed to do it...
2hr 19mins 27secs - final completion time...
no stopping... juz pure running/jogging...
im glad i didnt giv up...
met adalric aft i passed the finish line later on...

but wow.. most of them recognised n called me be4 i realised tt they were thr ><
juz shows how tired/focus im...
wasnt really looking arnd but looking forward to the end...
so sry guys ><

my thoughts when i was running...
juz to complete the race w/o stopping... even if i hve to crawl across the finish line.. i hve to complete it...
the things i had sacrificed for the run, odac farewell, my father's bdae dinner which was postponed because of my run..
determination while running - for greater heights...
the passion of the runners arnd me... with the same goal as me...
its no longer juz a run... no longer juz my run... its a run to finish for the other runners for everyone...
not thinking abt much stuff other than completing it...

but the mistake of nt eating was paid...
aft not hving a proper meal of more than 10 hours...
my stomach started feeling uneasy with it being full of water only n no food :(

then was the muscle strain...
hving sole n calf pain tgt was pretty bad...
then the toes juz cramp thr dun move -.-"
n the afterburn is still so strong tt its still hurting until now... ouchy...

this run made me realised im still not rdy for a full marathon yet...
im not gd enuf... at least not yet...
42.195 the magic number...
looks lik it would still be some time be4 i conquer tt number..
for now... looks lik i hve to train at least for 2 more half marathons, 21km be4 i try to attempt a full one then...

25km - COMPLETE

2011-05-08T14:32:00.002+08:00

the elections results were out apparently at around 2.30am in the morning...
final results 81- 6
cant believe i stayed up so late juz to watch the results...
cant rmbr the last time i was so interested in politics...
or maybe its juz my first...
hougang and aljunied grc to the wp...
others all to pap...
some ppl are happy.. some are sad...
me? im feeling pretty neutral...
i wasnt involved in this elections... not voting not helping out or anything..
neither m i pro-opposition or pro-pap...
but im tinking tt this elections... ge 2011 has sent to all of us a very message...
tt is singaporeans r looking for change... they want to be different from what they used to be...
this time the opposition won 6 seats... they would definitely try to go for more...
for me, who is under aljunied grc...
this really made me more interested in how the nxt ge 5 yrs down the road would be lik...
this 5 yrs would prove to be impt for the wp to prove their worth in aljunied grc...
if nt... the chances of them being re-elected would be pretty slim...

2011-05-07T23:52:00.002+08:00

well... the whole singapore is watching the elections now...
the poll is over... now all tt is left r the counting of the votes and the announcing of the results...
this is an impt election... the first tts so strongly competed since we gained our independence...
so who won? nth is determined yet...
but something is sure though... the nxt 5 yrs will be the ones to watch...
till the nxt ge then...

2011-05-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

wow as expected... both arms hurting lik shit now... can barely raise them...
back also slightly... hahaz
results of going to the gym aft not going for damn long...
ok today was a rather boring day...
sighs... then tmr got speech day tt im very unwilling to go...
despite tt... nth much really...

2011-05-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

wow has been some time since i last posted... again.. hahaz
hmm... not exactly alot has passed actually...
been thru sports climbing level 2, abseiling level one...

nah tts besides my point today...
had odac again... aft it supposedly stopped liaoz...
but it was not bad... lol
despite the bad weather again today... which resulted in us unable to play games...
i went to the sch gym for my first time this year...
seems lik alot more machines had been added since i last went in...
had quite abit of trying out here and thr...
and wow... how weak and pathetic i hve became...
this condition is really damn bad...
sighs... shall go to the gym more often if possible liaoz...
speaking of tt... i dun really rmbr the timings in which it is open... hmm..
the new gym instructor (which i hve no idea whats his name) had a rather interesting story behind how he became fit...
checking girls out and checking 'guy' out and stuff...
hmm then it was some video taking by mr koh who wanted to make a montage for us ><
so aft taking some pics in the gym we went on to the track to take more LOL
quite an interesting day actually...
the juniors had an outdoor journey to climb stairs for preparation of their tahan trip...
and when i was leaving.. they were juz coming back and had a run aft tt... they sure are tank this year compared to many of us... maybe even me >< sianzzz...
shld really train slightly more le... got a 25km coming up soon...

the GE 2011 is round the corner... this GE is the most hotly contested since 1972...
and the GRC im in is one of the hottest contested - aljunied...
tell the truth... i cant wait for the results... indicating the changes that imma be facing soon...
didnt hve much interest in this kind of stuff in the past... well u can say i hve grown...
we all did...
the nxt GE... we would be voting alrdy... whr would all of us be then?
are we still friends? will we still remain contact?
tt was a qns posted to me not too long ago...
but then again... why not?

Ending with I am still ME...
this ME is no difference for the ME you know from some years ago...
but just with a few more regrets...
i might tell... i might not... it all depends...

2011-04-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

wow... hve been some time since i last blogged...
last post was 7 apr... wew...
tts lik almost 2 weeks? lol

yesterday mass pe played some ball game which i thought was rather fun...
dun really know how to spell it... but it sounds something lik 'chuteball' or something...
then aft tt went for a 5 round jog with kianming...
not exactly very good... considering tt its still lagging behing the passing mark...
did another round with nicholas but got chased away aft he said i giving him too much pressure -.-"
then slacked abit be4 going for another with sengwai for his last round...
aft tt did some maths with keith qq n jr... zhenghui then came with 3 cans of beer aft his lesson...
well what can i say... he's of age aft all...
then was nth much really... waiting for 6pm be4 we went over to mrl to meet the others...
thr was a surprising number of ppl :D 16 actually... around half the sqd was thr to celebrate wentian's and winston's birthday..
so we left by backgate and took 14 to nicoll highway mrt thr...
then the others left for astons first while me, keith and zhenghui waited for taoqin to come...
apparently he went home aft mass pe to bathe first -.-"
kayez then was the usual dinner with rather lots of crap talk... and the mass money collection session... some photo-taking be4 we left...
then it was sort of the beer-drinking thingy...
so jr sort of shaked it be4 passing to them... (3 is actually for wentian, winston n junchong who didnt came ><)
but ended up only winston opened n tio... lol
so they shared it between the 2 of them while some of us shared another can hahaz...
the only actual time i really drank was for kirin dinner... which resulted in a red me... ><
which was a definitely fail -.-" hahaz
but this birthday celebration gathering was really something tts very memorable...
how it had used to so common and usual for us to do tt together... but now... we hardly do it anymore...
really makes me miss my ncosquad0809 more and more...
then thr's also the imbasquad which had really left me with alot of gd memories... ones tt couldnt be forgotten...
sigh i miss the np days... hahaz...
the days where we spent countless times tgt... gd and bad..

but it was a bad night yesterday...
woke up at arnd 3.30am in the morning with a splitting headache...
cant fall back to sleep and the whole mind was filled with random stuff which i couldnt clear and get back to sleep...
pain until i juz wanted to tear open my head -.-"
rolled around in pain and cannot fall asleep for almost half an hour...
until really buay tahan then woke up to take 2 panadols and tried again...
initially was the same...
but luckily the panadols took effect and i finally dozed off be4 i even realised it...
or else i really dunno how... sighz...

ok ending it off with
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENTIAN~!!! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINSTON~!!! :D